Pain (despair and agony on me... lol)

I swear there's something wrong with my ribs. I was in so much pain overnight (and this morning) I was dreaming about being in pain.

Crashing

So the new meds were too good to be true. Or I coincidentally had a few good days of my own. I'm crashing so hard today it's ridiculous. I slept all morning on the sofa until Liam woke up around noon. I'd love to go back to sleep, but as soon as I put Lorelei down I need to do school with Molly. I'm hoping it doesn't take long.

She's already complaining about school! The novelty lasted only a little over a week. Joy of all joys. My kids seem to have real problems getting time in space. Like, I tell her that she's going to have school pretty much every day until next summer and she gasps and groans and moans and then the next day is surprised when I tell her she has school to do. It's like it doesn't sink in AT ALL.

Lorelei is currently dumping the contents of her bib on to the floor. Fortunately it's just grilled cheese. I've already vacuumed up bagel (breakfast) and granola (snack) and don't feel like vacuuming for a third time in 5 hours.

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Bored

For the first time in a few days I'm bored - sort of. There is all kinds of straighting up and organizing I could do, but I'm also really tired today and I'm having a hard time keeping my eyes open. Liam is sleeping and the girls are watching TV. I wish Lorelei were more reliable. I might go in and try to sleep on the sofa in the TV room. It's either that or clean up the basement and maybe go through some bins for the yard sale. Blah, I just don't think I can do it.

Seems like an Easy Day (Knock on Wood)

We finished Molly's school at around 10 this morning. I don't have anywhere to go (and couldn't anyway since Bob has the van because his truck died) until Liam's doctor's appointment at 3. All I really need to accomplish between now (10:47) and then is getting a shower. And, if that weren't good enough, I'm going out to dinner tonight with a friend without any children at all!! :) YAY! I won't even know what to do!
Now, if I were being responsible I'd use this day to get some things gone through for the yard sale (although, I got rid of a ton of stuff last night - thank you Greg and Jen!!) and do dishes and laundry (because at this point I only have one load to do) and general cleaning and straightening. I guess we'll see what the day procures, but it's not looking good for responsibility.
My new meds are working. I've had more energy(ish) in the past few days than I have in a long time. I'm tired, but I don't feel overwhelmingly so. And my pain level has been fairly minimal. It makes me a little spacey and dizzy, though. It also gives me really bad dry mouth. But it hasn't increased my appetite (so far), so that's good. That was the side affect I was worried about most. If anything, because of the dry mouth, I feel like I've been eating less lately (although I still eat way too much crap food). And since I've been feeling better, I've been a little more active, so maybe it will all add up and I'll start loosing baby weight (and other weight!). That would be really nice.
I'm feeling the need to clean up and weed our backyard. It's a pretty big disaster at this point. We haven't mulched in a long time and you can tell!! I would really like to plant some things next year - sunflowers, tomatoes, zucchini, yellow squash, pumpkins, cucumbers, green peppers, maybe even some green beans. I don't really want a garden, though. I'd rather have plants in pots. I don't want more than 2 of each (except the green beans). Just enough so that we can have things on hand for salads and veggie side dishes. And zucchini bread! I've been wanting to do that for years, but with either being pregnant or having a new baby for the past 6 years, it hasn't happened. So, maybe next year.
I'm still looking for houses on the Internet. I keep wishing we could buy and renovate the first house we looked at. It could be perfect!
Well, I suppose I should go do something productive. Or eat breakfast. All I've had so far today is 1/2 a pop tart.
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I feel like I did a lot today and yet I don't feel like I got a lot accomplished. I'm sure that makes no sense. I guess I felt busy but not productive. Is that better? Although, I was fairly productive. I got Molly through school. Almost finished the laundry. Cleaned up the basement. Guess that was really all. Maybe it's 'cause I spent almost the whole day in the basement.
We're heading into fall, I can smell it! I love that smell! :) I love fall. It just sounds and looks and smells and feels and tastes so good! There's nothing better than fall foods. Think of Thanksgiving. Mmmm. It's just so satisfying. And the weather is just perfect most of the time. And the leaves are so pretty and you can hear the crickets at night. I wish I could live in fall all the time! :)
I'm waiting for the girls to finish up their snack and brush their teeth so I can put them to bed. They've been rather bratty for the past 5 hours or so. I'm not sure what it is about the hour of 3, but it's like all hell breaks loose and by 4 I just want to shoot them all and by 5 I'm ready to shoot myself. By 6, Liam is ready for bed so I can escape with him into his nice soothing bedroom. By 7 we can truly start the bedtime rituals. I remember when all my kids went to bed between 6 and 7. I miss those days. (Those were the days where they all took naps too... *sigh*)
I'm supposed to be getting ready for a yard sale in three weeks. I don't know how I'm going to do that. I don't even know how I'm going to get baby stuff together for my friend who's coming over tomorrow. And I've had weeks to do it! Stuff just doesn't get done around here anymore. Not that kind of stuff anyway. I'm in survival mode and that leaves no time for deep organization. :(
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This is the 3rd day on my new meds. I do think they're working, but today I've been having some side affects - I'm dizzy and very easily distracted. I keep forgetting what I'm doing. If the dizziness gets any worse, I won't be able to drive. As it is I'm not sure I'd be that safe... and in two days I'm supposed to be upping my dosage!! Eventually I'll be taking 3 pills a day. I wonder what that's going to be like?
I've made a nice dent in the laundry, although there's already another load waiting upstairs and there's a bunch of stuff down here that needs to be carted upstairs and put away.
I wish we had money to buy that house we looked at and fix it up. It would be so nice!! I wouldn't even need laundry baskets.
I think the routine for Molly's school is going to be an all day event. I've been checking things around 7:30 or 8, before she's even downstairs, usually, just to get a handle on what's going to have to be done. Then I get her to do all the drawing and things that she can do by herself right away. And then the more computer intensive stuff I'll do when Lorelei goes down for a nap. Anything that's left over will probably get done after Bob gets home from work. It's not very structured, but I think it's going to have to work. I just hope she actually learns stuff.
I've been working on getting the basement cleaned up. The laundry room and TV room are pretty much done, but I've got a pile of stuff in the family room that needs sorted and put away. We have so much miscellaneous stuff. I wish I could just dump it all, but the kids play with it all the time (hence the constant mess of it scattered all over the place).
I'm wondering how far ahead in school I should let Molly get. Should we work on pace - only getting ahead when we're going away or something - or should I just get as much done as is available and she's willing to do. I don't want to get too out of sync with the school...
My kids are turning into TV and video game junkies. I used to be so anti TV and video games. Then I had 4 kids and housework and home school and it just turned into something that would (almost always) keep their attention. I kinda hate that. We didn't have a TV growing up (well, Faith and I didn't) and I think we were better for it.
Well, back to the grind. The first floor is trashed at the moment, so I need to get the basement done so I can go back upstairs and clean that up! Grrr... I hate mess.