My Addiction

So, maybe it was the large, mocha frappuccino that I drank at 9 pm or maybe it was just time, but for whatever reason I have sudden clarity on my life in a way that I never have before.

I am an addict. My drug of choice is people.

It might sound strange, or maybe it doesn't, but I can attest to it's pervasive and destructive thread throughout my life. It comes with everything addictions hold - particularly cravings that I will do anything to satisfy.

I wonder how many people have this addiction? Actors, prostitutes, politicians, serial cheaters, desperate housewives, rapists? Think of anyone who goes to any extreme to get satisfaction, fulfillment out of another human being and you have a potential addict.

As exhilarating (and awake inducing) as this clarity is, it's terrifying as well. How many behaviors am I going to have to change to break this addiction? How many people will I have to avoid or modify my contact with? How hard am I going to have to work to replace my cravings with something healthy? What happens if I can't do it?