So today has sucked so far. I'm tired and in pain (though I must say, not nearly as badly as before Lyrica) and the kids have just been insane. Liam is starting to go through separation anxiety, so he cries whenever anyone leaves the room. Lorelei is her own cranky self, as usual, but it's been a bit worse today. She broke my hurricane candle thingy, she and Maggie got so filthy covered with dirt that all it did was make mud when I tired to wash their hair. Molly has complained every single step of the way with school today and has barely made a dent in her schoolwork in the past two hours. My house is filthy. The kids have hair cuts this afternoon at 3 so I'm under a time crunch and it's just making everything worse. And Lorelei can't take her nap because of it.
Pop died yesterday and the funeral and everything is Saturday. Because of that and the rain, the yard sale is canceled.
And the funny thing is, while I'm kinda stressed, in the back of my mind I just don't care anymore. I'm so tired of trying to maintain any sort of decency in this household. I just quit.

Tuesday

We found out last night that Bob's grandfather is dying, so he and Dawn are going to see him this afternoon. That sort of thing really hasn't let up this year...
Molly's wigging out about dance class, so I called in the reinforcements and Mom's going to take her. Mom is her favorite person in the world, after all...
And it's supposed to rain on Saturday so I don't know if we'll be having the yard sale.
ttfn.

Lorelei

So I think I had what is actually the scare of my life this morning. I was working with organizing school stuff inside and the girls were playing outside (like they had been all morning) and I walked out to see what they were doing and didn't see Lorelei anywhere. I asked Molly and Maggie where she was and they said they didn't know. I was trying to remember the last time I heard her voice (because even when I'm busy inside that's how I tell what they're up to and if they're ok) and I couldn't remember. Well, I panicked. I went running down the driveway screaming her name at the top of my lungs because all I could think of was that she either went into the road or into the creek. There was a girl walking along the road and I asked her if she'd seen a little baby girl about 18 months old with bright red hair and she said no, but she'd help me look. (While I was running down the driveway I had told the girls to go look in the house.) We ran up and down the creek and road - I was still screaming Lorelei's name at the top of my lungs - but no sign of Lorelei. Finally I heard Molly yelling "She's inside, she's ok!" I yelled thank you to the girl and ran up the driveway as fast as I could. I guess at some point Lorelei had come inside, but I didn't notice and since she was going inside the girls didn't really pay attention. She was on the stairs to the basement, going down, I'm assuming. I scooped her up and immediately started bawling my eyes out. Maggie was already bawling her eyes out. Lorelei was really confused as to why I was so upset and wouldn't let me hold her very long because she wanted to play. Then I had to call my friend back because I was talking to her on the phone when I realized Lorelei was missing. That was over an hour ago and I still feel all shaky and sick to my stomach. Lorelei is perfectly fine, but I feel like the world's worst mom, not knowing where my 18 month old kid was. They were outside for about 3 hours this morning while I did school with Molly and there were no incidents whatsoever. Technically this wasn't an incident either - she hadn't wandered off, she just came inside where she's allowed to be! But, since I wasn't really paying attention it turned into one. That girl on the street probably thinks I'm crazy, as does anyone in the neighborhood who heard me (which is probably everyone because I was really screaming loudly - my throat hurts because of it). And the donkey's next door do too, because I was screaming in such a way as to make them start braying. All I can say is, thank God for keeping Lorelei safe even when I don't and... we need a fence so we only have two options, inside or in the back yard. I could trust the older two, even when they were Lorelei's age. I can't trust her, she's too adventurous.
Well, I'm off to put Lorelei to bed... in her crib... where she can't get out!

Today

Believe it or not I had every intention of going to church today, but I fell asleep on the sofa and didn't wake up until 1/4 after 9. Way too late to wake up Bob and get everyone ready to go (no one had breakfast, no one was showered or dressed, ect.), so we stayed home again. He slept in a bit and I took a nap and then we went out for the afternoon while the kids were babysat.
We spent way too much money, but we had a good time and we bought things for the kids, which made them happy. I love spending time with Bob. It's so relaxing. And it's especially nice without the kids every once in a while. It's almost like we're dating again. :)
Enough schmoopiness. I have things to do.