Randomness

Lazy Sunday morning. I actually wanted to go to church this morning, but... it didn't happen. I can't remember the last time we went. When I was a kid, it wasn't an option. I always wanted to raise my kids that way too. Fell off that wagon pretty fast.

I should at least be doing something productive, but I'm very unmotivated these days. In about two weeks I'll get psychotically motivated and clean my whole house in preparation for my surgery. I'll just procrastinate till then.

In another hour I can start getting ready to go to Mom and Dad's for the afternoon. I haven't been there in forever. I miss it after a while. I miss every house I've ever lived in. I miss my grandparents homes too. They were all so comforting.

I'm listening to my kids talk about going this afternoon. "It's so awesome!" they say. :) Their conversations have changed so much this year. As much as I love babies, I am enjoying them getting older. At the same time, I want another baby rather badly. I keep praying someone will leave one on our doorstep.

Spring is finally here and I'm so glad. The sun and warmth have been wonderful. Yesterday Bob and I drove with the windows down and I just lay back and let the wind blow through me, cleaning out the dust and dark in my soul.

I didn't get much sleep last night. Why is it that sometimes I feel more awake on two or three hours of sleep than I do on eight? By this afternoon, though, I'll have a headache and want to crash. There's something hellish about the hour of four. I wish I could skip from 3:30 to 6:30 every afternoon.

I know most people dread Mondays but I don't. I like my weekly 'routine', as variable as it is. Tomorrow morning I'm taking clippers and a trash bag down the driveway when Molly need to catch the bus and I'm going to prune our triangle. There are really pretty purple flowers growing it, but you can't see them because of the ivy. There's also sticker bushes in there that I've been trying to get rid of for years. I at least need to cut them back so the kids stop getting caught.

I should clean out our van before we go. It's got a winters worth of trash accumulated in it. I used to keep my car cleaned out religiously, but the kids destroy things so quickly, it's hard to keep on top of even a small space like the van. A mini van doesn't feel very big with five carseats in it. We should have gotten the full sized. But I guess it will feel bigger when the kids can use the normal seats.

One of these days my house will stay clean and I'll have extra time to do fun things.