Eating and Sleeping

I would really like to know why my kids won't sleep, let me sleep and feel the need to eat all the time. If I am up and about and cleaning the house or something, chances are they'll behave at least decently for a few hours. But heaven forbid I try to lie down and go to sleep on the sofa for a little bit. They scream and whine and cry and fight and are generally rowdy and obnoxious. What gives? It makes me so mad I just want to smack them!
And then there is the issue of food. I don't know if they're bored or if they're really hungry, but the phrase I hear the most during the day is "I'm hungry". It's not like I don't feed them. They get at least 3 meals a day and 2 snacks. That's eating just about every 2 hours. Yet, they still complain. I think they must have tapeworms or something.
I am so tired right now I can hardly keep my eyes open. I've been trying to sleep for the last hour and a half or so, but I've gotten none thanks to Molly and Maggie who feel the need to do everything in their power to make sure it doesn't happen. Lorelei was better behaved.
Faith is on her way over here to watch the kids while I get my foot x-rayed. It's been hurting for the past 6 weeks or so and they've finally decided to check it out. The only thing I can remember doing is dropping a mug on my foot about 6 weeks ago, but there was no bruising or swelling or anything. I don't even remember it hurting right away. And it's a weird sort of pain. I can walk on it and everything, but it kinda burns, especially by the end of the day. So anyway, hopefully they can figure out why.
I'm just in a bad mood today. All I want to do is sleep. And I haven't gotten a shower yet. And we're supposed to go over to Ken and Beth's tonight for a meeting at 7. The kids are getting on my last nerve.
I've been thinking about asking people in the church to watch my kids every other Thursday for about 5 hours so that I can get things done around the house or run errands or go to doctor's appointments. Or sleep, I suppose, if I need to. Just so I have some time to myself. I just need a break so badly and I don't get much on a regular basis. My specialist for chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia has said that I need someone to watch the kids two days a week for 6 hours! Yeah, right! Lol! That's pretty much impossible! Especially since we have no money to pay anyone for anything. It just sucks. I love my kids so much and I wouldn't trade any of them, but having kids is hard work and I need a break sometimes. Yet I feel like people look down on me and are irritated when I ask for help. It's like "You had the kids, so you take care of them." And to a certain extent I agree with them, which is why I'm so reluctant to ask for help. Especially when it's just for time to myself. I just wish I could find people who WANT to help me out without expecting anything in return. I loved babysitting when I was a kid. I did it even when people didn't pay me, just because I liked being with kids. Makes me think there's something wrong with mine! :)
It's just one of those days, I guess. I know I could go to bed earlier than I do. I always seem to get caught up in something, but that's not an excuse. I'm just not a very self disciplined person. I used to be better, but lack of sleep is a strange thing. I'm too tired to be self disciplined. To be anything that takes motivation or work. Yet the lack of it is causing at least some of my exhaustion. I hate trying to find balances in life. It's the hardest thing to do.
On the plus side, I have managed to keep on top of the dishes, so the kitchen is still clean, which is really nice. I have to do at least some laundry today since Maggie peed all over her bed last night. Lovely. I really need to vacuum in their room too since Molly ripped a book up and scattered the little pieces all over the place. You'd think that since she loves to read so much she wouldn't do crap like that, but the girls is messed up in the head, I think. It was one of my books, too, which really pissed me off, but I also wanted to cry so I didn't do anything.
I should probably make the kids lunch so Faith doesn't have to deal with that catastrophe. And then maybe put Lorelei down for a nap as well. Liam has been asleep for a while. He usually wakes up during lunch.
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