Random Thoughts

I spent about 4 hours pulling weeds. It's a far cry from done, but it's much better than it was. It was physically therapeutic. I've noticed over the last few days that my pain is almost nothing. Even though my muscles got tired (to the point where I was shaking - there was a lot of shoveling involved) and I was sort of sore directly after, I don't seem to have any ill effects now. I guess we'll see what tomorrow is like, but it's still a vast improvement. Normally I'd be incapacitated in bed if I'd even been able to do all the work I did today.

Something has changed drastically over the last week. I first noticed it last Thursday when Bob and I had our work day. We got so much done and there was hardly any payback for all my physical activity. I still had energy at the end of the day. And since Sunday I feel like every day has been more of the same. Energy, alertness, clarity, focus... all things I've done without for a very long time - years. Because the change has happened so suddenly, it's extremely obvious to me. I'm wary of hoping that it will last. I should give it a month at least before I dare to believe my life could stay like this, but if this is a sign of things to come, I'm not sure there's anything I couldn't do. That's a crazy thought for me considering we have a wheelchair under the basement stairs waiting for the day I cannot walk and the expectation of moving when I can't climb up and down the stairs...

I really want another baby... or two. Twins would be nice. I don't want to put off the day when all my children are in school full time too much longer - I am looking forward to it, but the desire to have another baby, even weighing reality, hasn't gone away. I have more faith than ever that God will simply give us a baby if it's His will. If not a baby now, a foster child when Liam is 5 or 6. I'd like a baby, though. A little baby boy to snuggle. For now I'll be happy when my little nephew is born the end of August. :)